Today’s blog post is a little honest or vulnerable for me to write, but I think it’s important. I want to let you in on where I struggle the most…
I struggle with a deep desire to be perfect, to succeed and be good.
And, that doesn’t sound that bad on the surface. It makes me driven, it makes me get things done, it makes me be a better dad and husband in many ways. It means that I don’t tend to drop things, and I will push things forward. It means you can count on me.
It also means I carry a brutal weight around, all the time.
Because, I can’t be perfect and the truth is (while it’s awkward to say), sometimes my desire to be perfect is greater than my desire for God. This is where this becomes downright dangerous, because all of sudden what matters more is my expectations, rather than God’s. What matters most then is moving things ahead, rather then sitting with God. What matters most is perception of perfection, rather than the real, honest, messiness of life. And, what this leads to at its most base level in my life is this…
I keep a scorecard of success and losses.
While you may not personally be driven to be perfect (that may not be your struggle), what I think you can relate to is this idea of keeping score. Because I believe this “keeping score” mentality drives so much that we measure ourselves against our brother or sister, our parent’s expectations, our co-workers, or that neighbour down the street. We measure ourselves by what “other parents do” or what “society says we should do.” And, we end up keeping score to know that we are worthwhile and meaningful.
We keep score to know that we matter.
In my desire to be perfect, I keep score all the time. But, this is just absolutely true: There is no keeping score in God’s kingdom.
Because whether you are perfect or not, whether you can keep up with your perfect sister, or that co-worker, or your perfect parent friend, you have this truth…
You are loved by God.
You are a child of God
You are redeemed by God.
I think what we need in life is less keeping score, and more submission to the fact that you matter and are already included in God’s kingdom. I write this as much for me as anyone else.
What if you gave up keeping score?
What if you gave up striving for all that stuff around you? What if you just rested in the fact that you are loved, you are okay and God is for you? What if we let that centre us and lose the scorekeeping cards? What would life look then?
Because the short answer is this: Your life would look better, wholer, and certainly more full of God.
So, give up the scorecard this week and see how it feels to simply be accepted by God.
10 thoughts on “Quit Keeping Score”
Great blog, Andrew ! So true that God loves and accepts us now, as we are.
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Thanks so much Uncle Bill 🙂
So true Andrew. I know that in my life the strife for perfection or being in control caused me to have to deal with pride and Co-dependence. I am grateful that I belong to a church were we can become real and have opportunities to work on our Hurts, Habits and Hang-ups.
Keep up the great work you are doing Andrew..
Thanks Fred!!! I’m really grateful too that we can belong to a church like this, because we all have stuff to work on – I know I do 🙂
Thanks Andrew. I was guilty of keeping score also but I always thought it was because I’m left handed and had to prove myself to the other 85% of the world. Gods love taught me otherwise and I learned He made me this way for a reason so use it to help others somehow. Still a “work in progress”.
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Well Asher is left-handed so I’m sure he can relate to you with that 🙂 and I really like that idea of work in progress, because I certainly am!
I guess it’s time to change your bio on this site from teaching pastor to Lead pastor . 😍
Yep I guess so!!
Ouch and Amen! Just the reminder I needed today!
Glad it was helpful – but its also one I need too – almost all the time 🙂